Hello xanga world...
I have been extremely out of it for the past three-ish weeks. For starters I have been sick for three weeks with a nasty flu-ish-cold-ish thing that I never went to the dr. for so I have no idea what it was. :P I am still coughing but feeling much better. I am back to my normal pregnancy self, as evidenced by the fact that I am up at 1:30am.
Can i just say i have the best husband in the world? Even if he makes me cry when he forces me to relax and not do the dishes or the laundry or move heavy objects. Yeah, I just can't sit still. I am normally pretty anally organized (or want to be!) and it gets worse when I am nesting. And nesting is worse with two. UGH!
At least I have been feeling better (read: more energy, less nerve pain so I can actually walk, less rib pain, less back pain etc) as far as the pregnancy goes. That's a good thing because I have probably SIX STINKIN WEEKS LEFT.
I've been busy worrying my husband that I'm a heretic, trying to keep up with friends even when I am basically in isolation, attempting to still play with Jericho, working hard core on student missions stuff and trying to keep life in general plus two dr appointments a week organized. Ugh. I'm so out of it I forgot I'm supposed to schedule Rico with a cardiologist for his heart murmur-thingy.
Yeah, I have a baby with a peripheral heart murmur who just MAY have had h1n1 when we were all sick and I didn't take him to the dr. Send social services after me. The poor kid got well in a couple days and was happy and content and never had a problem - he handled everything way better than I did. :)
Speaking of my baby... I'm pretty sure he says Hi now and waves. He RUNS everywhere all over the house and gets into everything. Good thing we are really relaxed about that stuff. We only have to keep him away from a few cupboards and the water cooler. :P I could seriously not have a better, happier kid. He just motors around, talking to himself, reading books and playing with his toys and watching the occasional baby einstein or tv show with me. That's the only time he slows down enough to snuggle, and I like it.
I'm supposed to lead Seminettes study time in a couple weeks. We're reading Having a Mary Heart in a Martha world. I'm so not qualified. So I'm guessing this will go a lot like it usually goes when I say something at seminettes. I say something personable and just admit that I fail and everyone looks down uncomfortably and there is general annoyed and ashamed silence.... and then someone changes the subject. :P Last time I almost said... "That's like sex! Sometimes you don't want to do it at first, but afterwards you're definitely glad you did..."
Yeah. That would've been the wrong thing to say in a room full of future and current pastor's wives... :P
And I have to say that God is amazing. He is really taking care of us in dozens of little ways and even more big ways. I swear that I couldn't imagine how on earth we were going to make it through this time emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially. God is providing in every way. I love watching it happen, although sometimes I have trust issues. It's not easy - trying to live on a $15/week grocery budget isn't my favorite thing. Knowing that I can NOT buy a single thing for my twins is tough sometimes, especially when people ask "Are you buying cribs? What are you doing with the nursery?" I am sooo grateful for people who have given clothes and cribs and bedding and blankets and boppys and carseats and snowsuits and hats and so much else.
And it's soooo tough for me emotionally to accept help. I'm so grateful and appreciative of everyone who has offered to give of their time and energy and bring us food and help watch Jericho and... wow. I just want to do everything myself! :P
Yeah, definitely not qualified to lead the Mary/Martha study. But whatever.
That is my life right now I guess. Random and busy and I'm exhausted. But God is good and He is working in me, helping me learn to trust..
Not sure I like it. :)
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So, I have ask: Are you buying cribs? What are you doing with the nursery?
I can't call social services on you since I'm not really sure where you live, much less a phone number for social services in your area. If you want to give me those pieces of information I'd be happy to call them on you.
Maybe you should get your husband to take some lessons from me, I wouldn't be the best teacher in the world but I can certainly help him learn to be more of a jerk to you and lose that best husband title you've given him.
Okay, I think that's enough seriousness.
I remember one time hanging out with a group of people about a year and a half ago. In this group was a pastor's wife of 20 some years, a pastor's fiancee, a guy getting ready to go to seminary, a lady who works at a church and then me and three or four other lay people. Out of the group, there is no doubt that the people I listed with the exception of the pastor's fiancee were in possession of the dirtiest mouths and quite likely minds of the entire group. The fiancee was just laughing ten times harder than anyone else and I think that's why her mouth wasn't the dirtiest. Though what made it the best though was when one of the daughters of the PW walked up on us, and wasn't sure how to respond to the filthiness of her mom (she ended up partaking in the discussions). Also, it wasn't but a few hours earlier that the Pastor whose wife and daughter were there had given a sermon on purity that most of us had been around for.
Also, between your, my older sister's, and a friend of mine's pregnancies and the effects of them I am becoming more and more sure that I never want to have kids. I don't have the right temperament to deal with what seems to be months of hell. Given my experiences with women with infant children, I'm not sure the hell would end at the time of birth either.
You might be pleasantly suprised if you said it....I sometimes hang out with little old ladies...and let me tell you they say anything and everything...I have the best conversations with them...and one would think they would be more proper but no such luck there...often they make me blush
Hey lovely! I'm silly & haven't commented on this yet. :P How did said study go? Miss you & praying!! P.s. You rock.